Today was not supposed to end this way.... It was supposed to be a day of people proud of me! But then it turned out totally out of proportion! Seriously..... I try so hard! To please you and to feel like I belong. Why is it so hard to say what I feel out loud? It sounded so good in my head..... Why can't I just say it out? It could have solved the problem! It would have solved it.... I'm too weak! Can't say it out without voice breaking and tears falling.... Hate this side of me!

-Joann