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-Joann

Today was not supposed to end this way.... It was supposed to be a day of people proud of me! But then it turned out totally out of proportion! Seriously..... I try so hard! To please you and to feel like I belong. Why is it so hard to say what I feel out loud? It sounded so good in my head..... Why can't I just say it out? It could have solved the problem! It would have solved it.... I'm too weak! Can't say it out without voice breaking and tears falling.... Hate this side of me!

-Joann

How long has it been?

Omg!!! How ever long has it really been?
8 freaking months? haha..... That's just crazy! I've been doing nothing for almost a year.... Well, other than that one month in September where I was in college. Yes, one month! 4 weeks to be exact. I've attended college for a month.

To sum all my 8 months, nothing happened actually.....

March,My best friend since I was like maybe 6,7 left me and moved to THE Big Apple. My Elmi and Erica Yeboah left in March to New York City,Brooklyn. Were there at the airport to send them away. I just sprained my ankle and had to walk with a crutch. It was so difficult AND tiring. Cried a lot that day.... Hope someday we'll meet again. But we do skype from time to time. It was Vern's birthday when my ankle was STILL sprained.... haha! Had a lot of friends that helped me a lot. Took quite some time for me to actually walk again. But it's all good now..... I've recently just started running again. Sometimes when I hit my ankle on something hard it still hurts.... So I have to be extra careful.

April and May,nothing happened much really..... Was still bumming at home! Doing nothing and asking for money.... Hahaha! I know! It sounds bad..... Real bad!
All I did was go out with friends for lunches,dinners,movies, and shopping! Feel stupid thinking back..... But it was definitely fun at that time! Looking back,I feel like I've wasted so much time....

June,was definitely my month! My birthday was so much fun.... But not on the day itself though. We celebrated early.... Had a really small party at home and it was really memorable! Loved my friends for coming..... But well,on the day of my birthday itself, not so much! We had a vacation every year with some of our close friends in Fraser Hill. The vacation was great but we didn't celebrate my birthday so it was kinda disappointing.... But the trip was great! Went to tons of places and the weather up there was just fantastic!!! Love it there..... Hope to go again next year.

July and August was kind of a stressful few months for me! Finally got to me how little time I have and was rushing everything so I could get into the right course and college. Was really difficult for me to choose..... Whether to decide between whats general,easy,and straight forward which is Business or Mass Communication and Photography which I really love! Mom wanted me to take Business..... But what she doesn't know is that it's not what I like or even,who I am! So it was really a struggle between doing what I like and what she wants me to like! It was a really difficult time for me....

September! I finally know what I want(Mass Comm),and started my Certificate course. Which lasts for a month. It was really tricky because I needed to take it but it is also a Business studies course..... So it was a little difficult for me to follow. But it has all ended now... Which I'm so grateful of! Found a few really fun friends. One of which will take the same course with me. Quite excited for diploma to start.

October. Holiday AGAIN! Yes.... I can't believe it either! keke..... But that's what happened. Diploma was supposed to start in the beginning of November but then the school contacted me and said that Mass Comm will be delayed to December because of the shortage of students enrolling. Definitely made me really nervous..... Because it's not going well at all! I really don't want to wait anymore.... And I'm afraid that they might delay it again! I'm praying really hard that it will commence in December.... And to make it even worse,I lost my iPod Touch. Like seriously October is not my month at all! Was so disappointed in myself for not taking care of my stuff carefully! Cannot blame anyone but me!

Well,as for now,2 more days till November and I'm still hoping and praying really hard that Diploma will really start in December as they planned. Don't want anything to fall apart anymore.... Will really break my heart! Been working for an uncle from church for about 3 weeks. Just some paper works and stuff.... Get some experience in life! haha.... Take my mind of the bad things thats happened. But I know they all happened for a reason! For something bigger to happen. I really do believe it..... I know He has a way in doing things and these set backs are just the beginning! Better and bigger things are about to happen.

Keke.... That's about all that I have to say today. Been good typing again..... Lets just hope I continue! haha..... Didn't know how to start again so I just thought I'd give a run through of what's been happening for the past few months! Bye for now..... :)

-Joann

Yoseop

OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS HAPPENING TO ME....

So guess what? I freaking sprained my ankle.... It hurt so bad! Went for a walk with my mom in the morning and we were kinda fooling around and I landed into the side of the concrete and sprained my leg.... Went to the doctor yesterday and it was terrifying! Cried all the way.... But the doctors were friendly! They were cracking jokes the whole time twisting my ankle.... Haha! I just hope I can I can walking again. It kills me to not be able to walk at all.... Makes me feel useless. I'm never goin to take anything for granted ever again. For it to happen at a time like this makes me so depressed.... Was supposed to be at a friends farewell! They moving to another country and I've never seen them for so long... I miss them so much. And then Japan happened. Things are not going well at all.... Pray that everything will get back to normal again.

-Joann

movie with my sisters....

I'm at jusco right now waiting for my movie to start.... And as I was tweeting about my whereabouts, Diana came asking what movie I was watching.... So I told her it was I Am Number Four! By Alex Pettyfer.... With my other sister Vern! Then Diana told me she was watching with Jane.... Also a movie by Alex Pettyfer. Beastly.... How fun it is! To have a movie day with all four sisters in different states.... Haha

-Joann

wow.... I'm loving the new APP

I found this application in my iPod where I can blog to my blogspot.... Haha! This is so cool.... This way,I can start blogging again.... I know I've been neglecting my blog for a long time! But now with this app,I'm gonna start getting into the blogging world again.... So spread the word because I'm back!

-Joann

OMG

Wow.... How long have I not posted anything? I wonder how I've became so lazy.... I used to practically blog everyday! Even a few posts in a day.... LOL! But now,I post up a short post in a few months..... Everything has changed! I'm not that naive girl that everybody likes anymore! I'm that person that everybody hates.... I've become a nuisance to a lot of people! haha..... I'm just going to stop all that nonsense! I'm not gonna look depressed! Although I may be.... LOL!

Well,a few of my posts were about how I've done my SAT test and everything is doing well! So,I did already get my results and they're not bad..... Not good either! Just above passing scores..... haha! I'm kinda disappointed actually..... I expected to get better than that! But what can you do? I just have to blame myself for not working hard enough... And that I didn't rely on Him more than I should have!

On another note,I've graduated high school..... And right now,I'm just slacking around the house and doing nothing at all! Went looking for a few part time jobs but I'm too picky.... So maybe after Chinese New Year I'll try again! I'm currently looking for a college in the U.S. I really want this opportunity to be able to go overseas and have a good education..... And to be able to be taken seriously. So people would see me as a responsible person!

Wow..... I've been babbling! My apologies.... I just love typing! It's been a long time since I've done all that typing! haha.... It's late now! So I better get off..... :)

Guess now I know how you feel about me! Dissatisfaction..... I'm not stupid you know! Don't think that I can't feel how you feel about me all this time.... I don't know how much you dislike me but I don't understand why you can do and say such a thing! Don't you think that you're actually saying really hurtful things to us? Saying so bluntly that we are not part of your plan? That you did not plan for us to go out together.... I really thought you're a good friend and that we would be inseparable.... I guess I was wrong! I thought our friendship will go far.... I liked what we had!

How I feel!

The truth is,I miss you! I miss talking and laughing with you.... I miss making fun of each other. I don't know what happened! Maybe because you found some new friends or you think that we are not worthy to be your friends.... I don't know if you became our friend just for someone or whatever,but doesn't that friendship mean something to you?

Hello there!

Noticed anything different? Yes.....the pictures are different! They are edited in a totally different style than pictures that I've ever posted before.... Why? Because it's the new application..... From where? My IPod!!! hahahah...... It's almost like my phone already. I bring it to everywhere I go..... My favorite toy till date! LOL.....okay! Maybe I'm exaggerating a little.... But I totally am psyched!

Oh and by the way, I just finished my SAT test couple of weeks ago,and I think I did great..... Not in a "I'm gonna get so high marks I can't believe it" way but like "I'm gonna totally pass it" kind.... LOL! I have a good feeling about it..... But you'll never know what the outcome would really be. You might be disappointed,or you may be proud of yourself.... Either way, I'm just glad that it's all over! Results are going to be out on Thursday online..... I don't know if I wanna go check the results or not. Maybe I should just wait till they send my results to my address.... I'm still kinda debating about it in my head! Planned to check them with my other friend,but plans are off.... Apparently,someone else is more important than his results I suppose.....

Anyhow,I'm gonna just keep praying and hope for the best! Whatever happens there is a reason..... He's going to control everything that happens in my life. He's going to be my hope for living. I Love You!!!

-Joann

BACK FROM CHINA!!!

I officially love Malaysian weather!!! OMG..... The weather in China,GuangZhou is hot hot hot! It was freaking hot..... No air,no wind,just heat. We would just sweat when we get off the car. But the place was a lot of fun. And the food..... Everything is delicious. Except for the turtles,pigeons,jungle rats, and cow intestines. Arghh..... I hated all of it!

The people in China is very interesting.... Though in China,they all speak Cantonese! Dad's friend from China were very helpful and friendly.... They helped us so much! Though they had to work,their boss still gave them leave to take us around GuangZhou. Went to Fashan where the famous Ip Man used to live....

The driving there is crazy! Everyone just cuts a car after another.... They would ignore the traffic light. Every car would horn once every time they turn a corner.... It was freaking crazy! haha.....

Get to visit some sites.... Went to the zoo! It was amazing....almost all the type of animals were there! We went to ShenZhen and went to the Windows of the World... It is where all the famous sites for the world were there. So we practically went all around the world already.... We traveled around the world in 3 hours! LOL.....hahhhaha!

Overall,other than the weather,we had tons of fun.....bought a lot of snacks! Met all kinds of people.... Funny people,rude people,kind people,warm people! Will definitely like a chance to go again! To visit my granduncle and his family...

Be Thankful!

BE THANKFUL

for the wife
who says it's hot dogs tonight,
because she is home with you,
and not out with someone else;

for the husband
who is on the sofa,
being a couch potato,
because he is home with you,
and not out at the bars;

for the teenager
who is complaining about doing dishes,
because she is at home,
not on the streets;

for the taxes you pay
because it means
you are employed;

for the mess to clean after a party
because it means you have
been surrounded by friends;

for the clothes that fit a little too snug
because it means
you have enough to eat;

for the shadow that watches you work
because it means
you are out in the sunshine;

for the lawn that needs mowing,
windows that need cleaning,
and gutters that need fixing
because it means you have a home;

for the pile of laundry and ironing
because it means
you have clothes to wear;

for weariness and aching muscles at the end of the day
because it means you have been
capable of working hard;

for the alarm that goes off in the early morning hours

because it means
YOU are alive.

It's the HOLIDAYS!!!

Hi....It's been long! Been very busy....hehe! But now, it's the holidays!!! So sure very free.... Today is only the 1st day of holiday I'm already too free to blog! LOL..... Nothing much! Just desperately needed to update my blog.

Holidays starts! No plans to go anywhere at all....
Wanna go Melaka with family but they are all too busy!
With church,work,
And then when they are free,
We have camp! Haiz....
Wanna go back to Klang to go shopping with Jane but she's very busy with her work!
This holiday kinda sucks!

Hopefully this year's school camp is soon!
Lets just hope that they plan this well....
No mishaps like the last time.
Everything well planned....
Not like how it was last time.
Everything kinda sucked the last time we had camp!
Bad food,bad place,bad accommodations,bad childish games.
At least the company was good...
Good friends.....
I think this year would be awesome!
Though some off our friends are not here anymore....

OK! I'm babbling now....
Sorry for keeping you busy with my gila talk! hahaha.....
Just thought I should update...
Even without knowing what to say
Didn't even get ready! heheh....
I'll see you guys real soon! ...... Hopefully!

-Joann

Whatever that is happening....(more to come)

Hey...Long time no see! I don't think anyone comes here anymore... But I'm still gonna continue writing! Who knows.... Someone might randomly come here! ha.....

So,what have I got to say? Well,many things are happening right now.... I don't even know where to start. Except maybe that I'm starting my SAT preparations already. I'm taking tuition and I'm staying back at school to study...

Life has been really hectic! Nothing much that I can remember actually... But mom just got back from Korea. For the Prayer Mountain camp.

Oh and I almost forgot.... Diana brought her boyfriend back last month. And it was fun..... Dad didn't really make the effort though. He was even more friendly to my classmate than he was to his potential future-son-in-law! We'll just have to continue praying... Did I mention that he's Indonesian? AND he's a pastor? Yeah.... Cool I know! They met when Diana was at the mission trip teaching English to some kids....

Well,something shocking did happen! As of yesterday,I am officially the only one single in our family. Everyone is somehow caught in a relationship... I guess there are good parts and some bad parts. But I'm enjoying being alone. I enjoy having the total freedom to do whatever whenever.... I do feel lonely sometimes! But it's okay.... Right now what I have to concentrate on is my SAT test. I've officially finished on my History & Geography.... And I'm working on the last book of Bible! I only have 4 subjects left now.... I'm glad something is really gonna happen! I'm really going to graduate this year.... I no longer have to worry that I'm slacking behind everyone my age!

I should get to bed now.... Before I fall asleep at service tomorrow! Nitez....

-Joann

Say Cheese!!!

Got this instant camera about a week ago! Got some amazing shots already.... I think it's going to be my best investment ever! But everything else is quite expensive... The films are crazy expensive! And hard to get too...

June is ending. Didn't do much at school..... But more that I thought I would. Diana's bringing her boyfriend with Jane to JB this week. I'm really exited. I wanna get to know him more... And I'm quite nervous. Because I think dad don't really approve of this relationship.... I really pray that he would accept him when he gets here! Hope that they get along well.....

I've officially registered for SAT test. It's going to be on the 9th of October. I'm exited and sick to the stomach at the same time.... Time really do flies away in a blink of an eye! It's been 5 years since I've moved to JB. It's been 6 years since I've started homeschooling..... Everything is happening so quickly. I'm going to college very soon. I'm moving back to Klang very soon.

I just hope that I can be really serious about my school work. And not procrastinate anymore. And be more mature in doing everything. Not being offended so easily.... It's going to be very hard for the next 3 months and I just pray that everything will go well! That I won't have stomach crams on the day of the test like every other tests. That I won't be sick. That we'll get there in time,that we'll remember to bring all the things that we're supposed to. Like I said,I'm exited and sick to the stomach at the same time!

-Joann

Is that how you feel??

Being the outcast is not a good feeling!
Don't you think I know that already?
You thought I like being an outcast?
That I like being alone ALL THE TIME?
No one does....

-Joann